[cassiek9]

I'm 21. My parents are both alcoholics. I don't touch alcohol anymore because I can't stop once I do. My dad, who brought me up, started drinking heavily a few years ago. After not touching alcohol, all my life. Anyway, after a year, the doctor told him he had sirosis to the liver.. And if he drank again he would die, or something along those lines. So a couple years went by, he had a couple more incidents where he quit and his girlfriend of 12 years would take him back, thinking he was done. This last one, a few days ago, she said she's done with him forever. My dad told me that he was going to go stay with his sister, yesterday, and she picked him up from the greyhound. Today she called 9-1-1 and they came out and took him, saying he has heart problems now as well. A murmer? From drinking?

My only question, is why? Why does he keep lying to me and everyone around him? Why did he choose to lose his girlfriend of 12 years over drinking? I can't help crying, and this is triggering me to want to drink myself to death too. I can't imagine losing him. Allanon was recommended, but I guess I'm afraid. Feeling helpless is the worst part.