[Buttercup]

Thanks for the help. One of the things that scares me the most is that I feel so young to lose my dad and I still have so many years to live without him. Right now it doesn't seem real that he's dead, but if I live to a nice old age I'll have lived most of my life without him!

I still need him, I'm a single Mom with a little boy, and my Dad was one of the very few good men in our lives. My Dad was my night in shining armor when my husband ran off with a girlfriend a few years ago.

My Dad was always proud of me and wanted to hear about my life and laugh with me about funny things or laugh out loud when I'd tell him about something adventurous I did. My Mom just worries about me and asks how my diet's going and how my son's behaving. I don't blame her, it's just not the same.

Well now I've had a good cry typing this. It's been hard to let go and cry so I guess it's good to do.

Thank you