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Jenna....
It's a labyrinth gurl... but it's solveable...
for myself.. I have to arm myself with knowledge.. It's the key... and baby steps...
had to stop psyching myself out...
start small...
be a success at that... and then build on that....
I had to think of the things that I needed to do to help myself... and then I picked the one I was reasonably certain I could suceed at... and did it...
it started with brushing my teeth...
and then drinking more fluids...or I knew my bulimia was going to finish me...
and then washing my clothes... and cleaning my bathtub...
and it went on from there...
to medical checkups...
taking care of the money thing...
cooking.. (still f'n hate it)
all the while.. I was working on my recovery... trying to stop the acting out...
and reading..
I know for me that I have to keep my life very simple..
keep my stress level way down as well... way down...
it's probably shot me into isolation... but... other than the emotional crap.. I probably feel the best I ever have in recovery.
and I know SR plays a huge part in that...
It'll get better Shutter...
you just keep seeking.. and trying... and do one right thing after another...
Praying for clarity for you... and strength... and courage...
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