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Old 10-03-2005, 08:02 AM   #4 (permalink)
bikewench
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Hey Don....

yeah...
it's a lonely road eh...

I also have been trying to face my package of a life...
look at it dispassionately...
see where I am thinking and acting in ways that are perpetuating the disease of my childhood... with it's many tentacled reach...

no.. it wasn't enough to just stop using...

I have to be able to see myself in the dynamics of my life... see what is working and what isn't...

I have to keep stepping back... by myself... to see how big my onion is...

I know today as well that the majority of my angst comes from my self.. that knows I will probably put my own welfare last... so..
that creates anxiety for me...
and anger... when other people don't' respond to my obvious sacrifices...

I think we instictually know when we're done...
when those onions are ready to fry...

stay open to truth..
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