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hey Bozo....
My defense against depression was to do everything I could to understand how this was working in my life... what caused it... and what can be done about it....
I believe that depression is unexpressed anger and frozen feelings... and until I allowed myself to feel as bad as I felt... my soup just kept boiling away... spilling over day after day... burning those that innocently love me...
Granted... they have endured this last 4 years seeing me work through my stuff... but.. I've tried to keep my crying and my distress from them as much as I can while still letting them know I'm not quite okay... ;o)
I am finding that the tears are lessening now... and the denial and dreamstate is giving way to living in the moment...
I still hit bad patches...
but.. I come on here and read...
or I look up the issue and try to learn about what is happening to me... and take steps to eliminate things that are helping to create my chaos...
anyway...
my experience strength and hope for what it's worth.. ;o)
I hope you find solace..
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