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the music i listened to then, and still listen to today., is all about life's misery in addiction. i wonder if i liked it then because of the message it was sending me?
but i didn't know yet i had a problem, or did i?
could i have possibly identified with the artist before knowing where i was headed, or is it just coincidence?
coincidence? you say you don't believe in coincidence? well i do! coincidence is howard's way of telling me he's with me. anytime something happens by chance it's coincidence. look at the words carefully, there's a message in them.
everything is chance, everything happens by chance, this is because i have another chance. howard has granted me a new chance at life through sobriety. anytime something happens by chance it's howard's doing, it's my chance to take advantage of the gift.
so coincidence happens for me. coincidence. look at it. spell it out slowly. break the word down into a base word.
coincidence, coincide. be together, everytime something happens by chance it's coincidence, which is howard coinciding with me, coincide, to be together.
lots of words have hidden meanings, i hope you look at all your words carefully, there's a message in them all.
acceptance, i know there's a message in there somewhere, and howard is waiting for me to find it. maybe this is why i still struggle with acceptance. but i'll keep looking, i'll keep accepting.
anyway, here's some lyrics for ya to ponder........
I think these hands have felt a lot,
I don't know, what have i touched,
I think these eyes have seen a lot,
I don't know, maybe they've seen too much.
I think this brain has thought a lot,
Searching, trying to find the crutch,
I think this heart has bled once too often,
This time it's bled a bit too much.
Too much of anything, too much for me,
Too much of everything gets too much for me.
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