Originally Posted by
Scylla 
I should probably go to the docs but I don't want it to be officially recorded by them as am going through a divorce and the ex could use that against me in terms of custody of my son. He has his own issues which I won't go into here.
I totally agree about stopping the excuses,
I would take your own advice. I don't know the situation of the divorce, but i'm willing to bet your alcoholism is one of the key players on it, and your wife has plenty of artillery to throw at the courts.
Getting yourself sober will not be the best thing to do for yourself, but also for your son. Kids can be traumatized for many years, sometimes for life from alcoholic parents.
Perhaps get yourself into rehab, actively attend AA and get slips signed, start seeing an addiction therapist,.. Prove everyone wrong that you have changed your ways, and are now ready to be a sober and caring father, not one that's "just trying"