Ok, today has been an excellent day! I actually danced around the room a little bit after I got out of the shower
I am still feeling very tired/depleted overall but I am feeling 100x better which is SO reassuring.
I also got approved for FMLA, so I don't have to go back to work until next week! I am so thankful to have this time and space to recover and really rest up. I am really going to take advantage of it. Been eating healthy, sleeping, and drinking a TON of water.
My good friend encouraged me to use his "break up technique" lol. When I start reminiscing about smoking and glorifying it in my mind, to balance my thoughts out by remembering all of the negative effects as well. Otherwise, when you miss something you can start to see it as more positive then it actually was.
It is a weird feeling to not want to smoke, and even feel afraid of smoking, but to miss it too. The mind is a strange place sometimes.