Originally Posted by
Lpg 
i dont know why i keep putting myself in this situation. .
My guess is that it's because you are an alcoholic - just like me and most of the rest of us. For me the solution was first acceptance of that fact - that I truly am an alcoholic and that drinking is not ever an option for me anymore, not even one sip. Once I was able to accept that, I was able to build a plan to address it. The following link is a great read if you haven't seen it before, it discusses many of the ways others have addressed their addiction.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html