I'd agree with Fly N Buy.
I think it's enough for now that you accept that there's a higher power and more importantly, that it's not you. That was how I started and it was a struggle at first to believe that this higher power could even help me. That belief came in time as I worked the steps.
Today, a long time later, I still don't know what my higher power exactly is, but I do know that it works. It's been an ongoing process of learning and my understanding is always evolving.
I've placed sponsors on pedestals before and then was disappointed when they acted like any other human. Sometimes they might not have all the answers for us and we have to find in our hearts what's best for our path.