Hi there Sinead! So sorry to hear about your mother. That is not an easy thing to face no matter what age you are.
Glad to hear you're sober! What are your hangups about going to therapy? Therapy is great!! Some of the strongest people I know see therapists and are big proponents of it. I agree, I think it's something most of us need and those who are taking life by the horns and getting to therapy, more power to them!!