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Step ONE

I am powerless over Alcohol and or drugs.


You write of holding on, taking the bull by the horns, commitments.

What needs be done... accept the truth and the facts.

I am powerless in this area of my life....


Then stop holding on and fighting the bull.... Let go and let God.

Or as you said... keep doing what you are doing and keep finding, nothing changes, if nothing changes.

That committee in your thoughts sure does feed you Bull.
Stop fighting the bull with tools that don't work. Let go as you accept the truth.

Work the steps... they do work when we work them.