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Pernell,
I can see by reading all of your posts that you've found balance with all of this. I haven't. I have the head knowledge, but haven't grasped it in experience yet.
I have the opposite problem which is still pride. I feel inferior and still feel that if I could just be better God would accept me. I know in my head that's not true, but in my emotions I have to keep fighting against my desire to improve in order to please God. I'm very conscience of sin. This guilt always keeps my focus on myself. I know that I could never never be good enough to gain God's favor, but I can't seem to find His grace.
Coming to the end of myself with no place to go is a very painful place to be.
I have a hard time with communication. I hope you understand what I'm saying.
Hugs,
MG
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