It's a good thing here that I can post to all at once, for the reason that, we really all have the same fears. That is kind of cool in a sick kind of way
I was feeling like a ton of lead was on my shoulders. Thanks for the posts to lift me up.. I was also reminded that I was slipping from god.. That was really hurting me alot.. Another cyber friend also helped remind me..
You're all so great, and I appreciate ALL of you. Such kindness shown, at a really dark moment for me. I do feel so much bettter already.. You, god and my cyber friend are the
best!!!!
Secret, I am a hypocondriac (sp?) I know that. I do believe aot of it came from what we went through with my mom, she was misdiagnosed for a whole year, then died in 6 weeks when she finally was diagnosed. My whole family seems to suffer that way.. We all are sure we are dying..
Thanks for showing kindness to me..
Bike, as I said in the other pos,, you are a very compassionate, kind person. Bless you for the kindness you show to people.. That is very helpful, and nice.
I have not finished greiving my mom. It's been 10 years. That might sound silly to some, but I just haven't been able to move pass the loss, and sometimes it is really still heartbreaking for me. I began seeing a counselor again, and I hope that she will be able to help me move on a bit more..
Thanks for caring about me, and so many others here on SR. I have seen you show undying faith in people here.. You are a very good person.
Jenna,
Yep, I smoke to. So stupid.
Recently when Peter Jennings died from lung cancer, and then they said that (superman) (can't remember his first name) Reeves , wife has the same lung cancer, and she never smoked, well I was certain I had lung cancer. I had to go to the doctor that week, and I was going to REFUSE a chest X-ray. They keep telling me I have asthma a wheeze in my left lung, and keep giving me inhalers, that I don't use, because then I would have to admit I have a problem,, I am truly sick in the head....
My grandma had emphasema, and my aunt has it.. So I have seen that. I probably have that now that you mention it LOL.. Not really funny..
Thanks also for caring and posting on my messages. You all really helped me tonight, by showing me that I am not alone... Thanks
Ryan
Thanks Ryan,
We are emotional people.. That can be a good thing, but it can also be a bad thing..
Thanks Ryan. You are a sweet heart. I do actually feel I can talk to you. I know you would respond in a loving way. You are that way.
I just didn't want to burden you right now with all you have been going through..
I do care about you. I do also feel I am loved by a few here, (and not so loved by a few here) that can hurt me... But I shouldn't need all to love me.. Just another of my many problems. I do feel I was getting to far from god. I need to begin praying again, don't know waht happened that I stopped, but I ca tell you, it only took me a few days before it really affected me.. That I will change..
Thanks Ryan, you are also loved...
Thanks everyone. I feel so much better tonight, thanks to all of you.. I couldn't ask for better friends. I do consider you all my friends.
Love, Becky