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Wow! Not easy for me, either, T2S. It's ironic that this is today's Just For Today, because I just went through a situation where I was furious that someone in the program dropped the ball at chairing an important meeting on Saturday, so many women, including me, had to go without their NA women's meeting that we all absolutely love. I'm standing there 20 minutes before the meeting, outside the locked church, balancing the coffee urn and supplies in one hand and donuts in the other, only to get a phone call 10 minutes after the meeting was supposed to start that the chair person couldn't make it. I was embarrassed at my reaction. I wasn't compassionate at all. This person had dropped the ball many other times, and for me this was the final straw. I was cold and rude and very short with her on the phone. Now that it's Wednesday, I'm seeing that I survived without that meeting, my kids enjoyed the donuts, it took me one minute to repack the coffee urn in my car, and I went to a meeting the next day. Why did I react so badly? I really thought I had been implementing my new NA tools to my life. I guess it was God's way of showing me I need to work on my compassion and temper. I may need forgiveness and compassion from someone someday.
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