Hello to you all
Yesterday I got reminded about my father who passed away several years ago by somebodies share at a 12 stepmeeting of NA. I got very emotional because I didn't want him to die, at that time I said G*d take me instead of my father, please! As if I could keep him alive just by wanting it!
Well, ofcourse I stayed and my father passed away
I guess it was his time to go. Normaly when I have to go through these emotions, I over ate and that was that but now I use the tools and even I could not sleep the very first hours, I did not over ate. Woot!
Today another test....my husband relapsed with alcohol and drugs.
I felt all the negative emotions, like anger/sadness etc. but I used my tools again. First I called a friend from Nar-anon who sugested me to make a list of what I could do today also some happy-things for myself.
Well, I made the list did some cleaning in the house and went to bed to read some stories from the BB then I fell a sleep for 2 hours. The sleep was really doing good, I felt energetic and strong when I woke up.
Now all those things which I did were very help full to me and so different then what I used to do when feeling down.
This evening I did not over eat and its my fifth night of abstinent.
Not sure if I already mentioned in an earlier post that I got an online-sponsor and she is really great, giving good sugestions and is very loving and spiritual.
For all these things I am very grate full.
Thank you for reading.
*hugs*
Ginger.