Originally Posted by
dwtbd 
Glad to hear it is at least a little better.
Planning, preparing , cooking and cleaning up can be good activities to help time pass and push back anxiety from being a sec by sec grind. What's for dinner ?
Most likely left over Thai.
I just had lunch with a friend who is talking this through with me. Telling the truth and letting it all out is one of the most freeing feelings. Ive had this dark secret. Ive had this behind closed doors. Ive had this voice saying " WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING? YOU CANNOT DRINK! Ive carried on knowing full well, everyday, that I was going to do something detrimental. Ive been scared for 3 years. Hungover for most of three years and when I was not hungover I was certainly about to be. Ive always been scared. This is a lifelong disease. Time went by quickly; those three years.
I am feeling a ton better. Having a support system is so crucial. Everyone needs to be on board. My family and friends need to know how this is life or death. Its my work and I am the only one who can do this but I cant do it alone.