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Hey Wolf...
My thoughts on guarding my thoughts...
I have come to recognize that I do tend to think along certain tracks... and like I said to my ex husband one time while we were still together....
"why dont we just record our fights and then.. when we get into one... we'll just push play and we can both go and do something else while this same fight rolls out over and over and we always end up at the same outcome..."
yes.. for me... nothing changes if nothing changes...
and in my typical black and white thinking...
I of course think the changes have to be huge to make any kind of an impact... and there is where I shoot myself in the foot... cause lots of times I'm incapable of initiating changes in my life due to my issues...
and a round and round I go....
so now... I'm making little changes...
ones I know I can make...
like just going for coffee with someone that makes me feel intimidated....
or.. joining something... but making sure that I work in the trenches... and not the front lines...
.. and even just sitting and being uncomfortable with myself ... maybe listening to myself for a change... see what I really need and want....
I know that I tend to go for a certain type of individual because the way they act and relate to life is "family-iar" to me... so.. their easier to be around...
anyway... that's my 2 cents Wolf...
hope you have a good day...
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