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Now some poems...though I'm reluctant to share because I'm not a poet and have only written a few this past year (mostly about depression and hearache and they're kinda cheesy but here goes anyway)....I've never shared these with anyone so I'm very nervous about this. In order to understand I must first tell you that I am 28 and have loved many, but have yet to feel truely loved by anyone.


Lord send me someone to hold me tight
To wipe my tears and kiss me goodnight

I need someone to love me truely
To care for me wholey and fully

All my life I've searched so hard
Always hurting cause I let down my guard

No one knows all my pain
Nor how much I have to gain

I've tried to hold my life together
And now another "him" I must sever

Lord, I'm not strong enough for this one
Sanity fast enough can not come

It's like I'm holding onto something false
To keep from feeling total loss

Am I not worthy of true love?
Isn't someone watching from above?

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Somehow I'm surviving from day to day
Though important things never go my way

Lord, when will it be my time to play
For those sweet words "I do" I want to say

It's April now and soon will be May
Won't you please send me a lasting sun ray

Such dreams I hold inside
But someone to share them I can't find

Why does he have me so enchanted?
Or is my heart completely slanted?

A house in the country. A dog in the yard.
Kids on the porch swing. It shouldn't be hard.

A cool breeze blows while all fishing at the pond
Those are the things for which I am fond

Lord don't I deserve to be truely happy?
Or is the idea ultimetly daffy?

A winding road to a quite little home
A relaxing life where sunlight shone

Take me home
I have no home

No home with love and laughter
No home to come back to faster
My life is such a complete disaster

Sure, some say I have a lot
But the truth is that they really know not

All I want is love devine
If he'd just leave that bottle behind
Drunk on love and we'd be fine