What to do.......bi polar........
Our marriage counselor has advised me to seek psychiatric help as she feels that I am bi polar. Now, this is a very interesting turn of events since a previous psych-therapist said, instead, that I had PTSD from my life-long asthma, although my wife, who has studied such phenom in college told me that I was manic/depressive years ago. The real catch here is that once I took the advice to study my possible bi polar disease, I found that MOST bi polar patients CANNOT alter their compulsive behaviors without Lithium or other chemical-altering drugs, and that trying to work through these compulsions without the meds will only make matters worse, NOT BETTER! So I'm left wondering how my wife who apparently knew I was bi polar, knew what the bi polar disorder was doing to me, still managed to decide that it was necessary to continually press me about money issues(which are not out-of-control even now)and my construction of an aircraft(which is almost complete.)rather than concentrate on getting me into therapy!!!! I now understand these things could be a result of my very plausible bi polar compulsive behavior, and I am seeing a psych-therapist now to deal with it( if it's real, I WILL BEAT THIS!), but how could she have known these things and still ride me to change knowing that it would take Lithium or more drugs to actually bring about CHANGE???? I want so much to make things right by saving our 13 year marriage, and I do love my wife, but now I don't know if I can trust her even after I beat this disease. I hope to God that I am overreacting, and not seeing reality.
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