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Old 01-11-2017, 09:12 AM
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Wisconsin
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Thank you, everyone, for your kindness and thoughts. I think part of what shook me was how strong my reaction was. I have not had a visceral reaction like that in a year. Sure, things have triggered me, and they have made me angry or sad or whatever, but this one was just so...extreme. Perhaps exacerbated by the typical holiday stress. Perhaps it was just a really sore spot that I hadn't really paid attention to.

In retrospect, I *did* calm myself fairly quickly. A similar reaction a year ago would have left me basically useless for a whole day.

I've spent a little time today going back and reading some of my favorite stickies and classic readings. I don't want to live the rest of my life mired in the memories of everything that was so, so awful, but I also know that I still have work to do where that stuff is concerned. I do myself a disservice to try to ignore it.
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