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Oh boy here we go.
I have a very sick boss / best friend (Christie) who is battling breast cancer and it has metastisised (sp) to her liver, and I think we are starting a downslide. I cannot tell you how much I adore her and the times we have had. We are truly best friends to each other.
I am so sad, & scared and tired and mad and helpless, and I might add the only one working a 12 step program that is involved.
There are ALOT of things going on that are so WRONG, but very much none of my business, so holding my tongue is playing a HUGE part in all this and not easy for me.
Just trying to apply all principles I have learned in AA, and do what is in front of me.
I am close with my awesome sponsor and have some great AA hand holders for support.
It amazes me though, how easily it feels to me to want to sedate myself. Not because it will change anything, but for the temporary escape from PAIN.
I learn from you all, and respect your opinions, so I am sharing.
Have you felt like this? I seem to be doing all the naturals: meetings, sponsor, meditating, service etc....but this one good drunk fantasy keeps hanging on.
Prayers, Hope and advice appreciated.
This pic is (from left to right)
Christie, "Weed", and me on a road trip.
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