CBT... you betcha...
and it works...!! And creative visualiztion and all that.
But.. I see now that what was happening was that I was fighting/dealing with each situation.. each memory.. and I didn;'t know why... and that was why I was beginning to lose hope...
Once I had read all the stuff on Coping.org and realized how many personality disturbances I had... I started to think that I would never get out from under this shyte and that I would be dragged hither and yon with my whacked out emotions and hyper responses to everything...
And on top of that... there was the continual push to mood alter and use...
But.. now it's beginning to seperate...
today and yesturday...
reality.. and dreams/expectations/control
I know who the enemy is now... !!!!!!! ;o)
hehehehe....
And I know I can deal with this now without going for medication... because I was grasping my last straw in that area.
I've seen what can happen with medication... and I suspect it would probably finish me.
Equus...
I've tried the analysis route.. and...lol.. it's too slow....(among other things) and I was still depending on something outside myself for direction and relief....
I am totally going to research CBT to its fullest... and that is going front and center in my tool belt...
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I got handed the pen to write my own story and it isn't done yet!
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Sooooo totally....!!!!
You know... I prayed a coupla months ago to my HP to show me the truth around my guy...lol... and leave to it God to go one better and show me the truth about
myself...
I can't believe how one little piece of information can set a mind free...
I'm giddy... and I ain't afraid to admit it.. ;o)
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Please challenge this belief that the past traumas will never go away,
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That's the thing Equus...
today.. I don't care about what happened in the past anymore...
I know the mechanics around it now... and my past and my trauma are a part of who I am... and they helped shape me.
For every bad attribute I got from it... I got a good one as well I see now.. like it says on Coping.org... and I can now pick and choose what I keep.
I know the works not over yet... and I'll probably forget and fall on my face a time or two more before it fully sinks in...lol.. but I don't care....
I found my way once... I'll find it again...
Bless everyone on Mental Health...
And don't ever give up hope...