I'm so sorry about your situation. I also have depression and recently found out that it is possible that I have bipolar disorder. I have definitely had days where I was so very tired. Not just physically, but emotionally. Just didn't want to do anything and felt worthless. Acutally I am in one of those places now . . .
BUT, that is not why I wanted to post. I just wanted you to know that I am here too. I will promise to have a bit of hope if you will. Sometimes it is hard for me to have hope for myself, but knowing that it is helping someone else seems to help me. So, I have hope for you and I will pray for you. (Both of these are 2 HUGE things for me right now) -- see my post re: how to move on
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ewpost&t=67138
I also just want to throw this out there: when was your most recent check in with your prescribing physician? I was on Zoloft for a while and I don't know if I became more depressed or if it simply didn't work for me, but I began to feel horrible despite being on Zoloft. Just a suggestion to check in w/ your dr. Also, I had to go to a psychiatrist who specializes in substance abuse in order to get the best treatment. Although things seem hopeless and worthless for me right now, I am certain without his help I would not be here today.
Hope and faith to you.