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Hey needhelpva, I can relate. I have struggled with severe depression and alcohol as well as other drugs too. I'm clean now, but am still on very close terms with the feelings of pain and humiliation. I don't have a job, and am chronically ill. I'm 39 and know what it's like to want to end it. That being said, I know when people say "Things will get better", when you feel like that it sounds like an over used cliche that has lost all meaning. But things can get better. How to move on? Just hang on. It's simple, but not easy. Just keep trying. You have already accomplished a lot and can accomplish a lot more. It's really good that you have a friend for support and a good therapist. That's excellent- and a reason for hope right there. In a year from now you could have a job you like even more than your last one, be sober and enjoying life. You may not feel it right now, but you are still young. Keep your head up and believe things will get better-believe that you deserve happiness and you will achieve it. Take care and keep posting. Sincerely Cate.