| well you SURE caught my attention!!
I used to do that all the time when I very first had some sobriety under my belt. What stopped me was having a counselor say this:
Counselor: Who is your most vulnerable child?
Me: My 7 year old girl
Counselor: Ok say she comes home from school and is very sad cause some kids were picking on her. You put your arm around her and sit her down on the couch and as you are telling her it's ok, you are running a razorblade making small cuts all over her arm....CAN YOU IMAGINE?!?!?!? WOULD YOU DO THAT???
Me: *tears streaming* no......
Counselor: THEN WHY IN HELL WOULD YOU DO THAT TO YOURSELF WHEN YOU ARE FEELING DOWN???
when she put it that way to me, I never did it again. I kept picturing "my little Halo" and doing that to her....makes my stomach turn,really.....
I have scars now and it's embarrassing. I wish I never did that...
Hope I helped even a little...
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