Hey staying! Just keep plugging along.
I started taking meds for my depression 3 years into sobriety. It was a hard choice - I felt very self-conscious. It's taken me over a year to find the right meds. This year sucked, but was nothing compared to the 3 years I was sober and just waiting hoping it would go away if I (went to 8 meetings a week, held a job, didn't hold a job, worked a set of steps, worked another set of steps, got a new sponsor, went back to the old sponsor, worked a set of steps, read self-help books, etc). I finally had to cave and admit I wasn't causing my depression and it wasn't just going to go away. No matter how active I was with my program - it really was just biological and I needed meds. Finally starting to seek help in that department made a world of difference for me, and I had to find other depressed people in recovery to keep reminding me it was going to be worth it. Today I know it will be and that yes - the best is yet to come. Just hang in there, find others going through the same, and of course, do whatever you need to do to stay sober. A good program kept me alive through my stubborn times
