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PED,
You have a point. the need for connection is a certain issue. I guess I really have no inclinations to cultivate intimate connections with anyone other than the woman I adore. Is that antisocial/and-or unnaturual behavior in a sense????
The way I feel is that I don't acquire any satisfaction from any other connection until that one has been met. In a nutshel, I can't operate properly until that particular NEED has been met, from what I can tell anyways.
"Intimacy (as I mentioned above) in its trues sense is simply having a closeness or connection with another person. Sexual attraction actually doesn't have anything to do with the definition per se, but sexual feelings (sometimes erroneously) get intertwined with intamacy and are confused. This is what happens alot when people swap sexual feelings for intamacy, and vice versa."
-In response to that, I must say; I don't swap sexual feelings for intimacy as far as I can tell. I'm really not quite sure where you were heading with this. I don't desire a F#$k per se to fulfill me. I long for that human condition of being special to that person of the opposite sex who is special to me and ALL the beautiful things that come with it. I don't see that as anything more than fulfillment of the most special and important part of what it is to be human. I am of the mind that if this is not achievable and maintainabe in the course of a life, then life is truely NOT worth living unless one dedicates him/herself to something to the effect of Sister Theresa. For which I am not a person of that caliber, so I see no other option.
Don't take my moniker that inplies Pepe lepew the cartoon character in the wrong context, I am not permiscuous. I just love wit intensity but not infatuationatly.
Fortunately I am only bipolar-II which only has led me to episodes of hypomania instead of full mania, however, I have had episodes of major depression leading to me waking up with a 12 guage shotgun in my bed after a blackout and no recollection of how it got there. Not a good thing.
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