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Rant all you need! That's why we're here. To listen and share our ESH.
I don't know how long you've been on the meds, but, they can take 4-8 weeks to kick in. Have you been on them that long? If so, and you're not feeling better, you need to talk to your doctor. This is an imprecise science and sometimes, it's trial and error. But, hold on. It CAN and it WILL get better!
Also, are you drinking while your on the meds? Alcohol is a depressant. Taking an antidepressant while drinking is defeating the purpose. The booze cancels out the effect of the meds.
Now, what about your daily ritual? It often helps to set a schedule for your daily events. Getting up at the same time; going to bed at the same time; eating dinner at a specific time...within reason of course.
Also, are you eating properly? Balanced diet. Vitamins. Lots of water. The body needs this stuff to work properly and there is a connection between body and mind.
Are you exercising? Try to do so. It sets off endorphines in the brain, those "feel good" natural chemicals. Just don't exercize for 3 hours before bed. Otherwise, it can interfer.
These are things that helped me when I was in the middle of my depression. I hope they help.
Please don't feel like it's not working. It will. WIth time. And a little help from your friends here at SR!
Others will be here soon to give more information and share their own ESH.
Let us know how it's going, ok?
Shalom!