Really struggling with the depression lately, which obviously makes the need for alcohol so much easier to deal with...
Meds aren't working at all. If anything they're making things worse.
Life is improving from terrible to half decent, but that doesn't seem to make any difference, while the depression is like this everything is terrible. Hell, I could win the lottery tomorrow and it'd probably make me want to throw myself off a bridge.
I'm trying everything I can to stop the depression getting the better of me again but I don't think I have any hope of being happy again any time soon. And then you're supposed to resist alcohol while dealing with all of this?!...
I don't know what the point of this post is. I guess if someone has some miracle cure for either depression or an alcohol addiction it'd be helpful. Failing that, I don't have a clue why I'm posting this... still, I needed to rant a bit about it.