[Dan]

I'd like to hear from anyone, including those that may have found themselves in this post- relapse time I'm in. And let's get this out of the way right now; the only acceptable reason, to my way of thinking, that I drank, is because I chose to.
Here's the question:
*Was I white knuckling it for fifteen months, and didn't admit it to myself? Or even worse, didn't know it?

Reason I ask is that my sponsor told me something yesterday that burned a hole in my skull it was so pertinent.
'Maybe you never really stopped Dan'.

It makes sense to me right now, even though I was in the process of writing the step cycle for the second time.
I'm fond of saying that humility is that thing that flies out the window as soon as you think you have it.
Now I'm thinking that I might just include spirituality in that equation.
I posted a few days ago that I thought I was experiencing a crisis of faith the last few months. Dunno.

Random thoughts of the newly sober.