[dmajor7th]

Hello Peplepew, I understand your situation. I am not Bi Polar, but Borderline. I went through booze and drugs and finally got off them, but after that-real life came crashing in and my mental illness wasn't dulled anymore. So I've basically isolated myself. I haven't had any meaningful human connection for many years. I feel so lonely sometimes, I cry in gasps. I'll be 39 in July and have never been married or had children and I haven't had the pleasure of just having a wonderful man hold me or look at me with affection for a very long time. So I truly do understand your loneliness and yes, the "intimate" or lack of, it too. I'm starting to address my problems. This is a very good board. I hope you can address your drinking-because it will make things worse. You can recover and find that special lady. I wish you all the strength in the world. Best of wishes.