Thanks Again Pedagogue, I think it might be a good idea to try an antidepressant that is used for both depression and anxiety and slowly wean off the xanax. I don't have a penchant for abusing prescribed pills. I stay within my prescribed limit. As for therapy, I totally agree that there would be nothing better than going to a day program with other people who have similiar problems. Just getting out of isolation, I know would be a tremendous help. I phoned mental health on Monday and they never phoned back, so I'll phone again this coming Monday and see if I can get in for an assessment. If I can possibly get off the xanax and stay away from benzos, I would greatly prefer that. I'm quite sure they are making me worse in some ways. My problem is, is that the last time I refused clonazepam at this place-they put me down as non compliant on my file and that is probably being taken into consideration as we speak as they are deciding to take me on again or not. Anyway, I'll try to get in to talk to someone next week.
I'm a little afraid to go out and talk to people because I mix up words and forget common words and I feel that I don't fit in with the regular population-I feel I have nothing in common with them. Plus I've become kind of socially inept being isolated so long. Anyway, upwards and onwards-heh?
