Wow dude! Must be a maturity thing. I too have been going through alot this past couple of years. I am 22+ years sober. So, check it out. If you would like to make contact with some big book thumpers....I am the guy. If you want to be a wuss then there are plenty of them here too! LOL!
Let me know:
richardsw@gods-grace.com
Later,
Wilky