[Douglas]

Hi everyone,

I suffer from severe anxiety disorder,agrophobia,
and am Bi-Polar.I have suffered depression and
the Anxiety now for the past 12 years!Yes,that is a long time of horror for me,and I do put the
blame on the doctors that I saw,one told me he
don't like "drugs"..he'd rather try other ways.
One was,buying a self-help book,and drinking
herbal tea!I kid you not,and it wasn't until last
year I met this Doctor from India,who had me tell
him more of my effects...and when it got to how
my mood changed in 1-3 mins..he ordered some
blood work...(only doctor to ever do so),and the
result--My Lithium level was 0.4..so he put me on
Lithium 1200 mg a day..25mg Paxil CR (Controlled-
Release)a day,.0.5 mg Klonopin a day.,and 16mg of Gabitril a day.So it has got it in a somewhat
stable...but along way to go.I still feel alot of
times I'd probably be better off exiting this
world...then it will pass.I have isolated myself
from the world for the past 5 years..now I see
myself at 43 and feel It is too late for me to
accomplish anything now..I am too old.But I am
trying work on my music project,and playing to
keep me calm..it does help alot!And as part of
that project is to share it with other musicians
that share the same/similar problems /interest.
What I have shared here is a small fraction of
what I have been through,but I am putting all of
that on my upcoming website.I don't want to over
due my Thread here..;
Thanks for listening,and if you have comments,
suggestions,anything,feel free to ask me.

God Bless All...

Doug