Originally Posted by
alterity 
No and yes but I won't be able to see a therapist until I get some insurance issues sorted out first. I was serious about wanting to start a local nar-anon chapter. There is a huge drug problem in this area.
OK. There are a lot of layers to the issues regarding your son, and because of that, I don't want to trivialize them by, for example, saying that what's going on with your son is not your fault. I think you need to be careful. And that's why I believe a therapist that can work with you in unpacking your history and your son's is really, really important.
With that being said, however, what's done is done. None of us can change the past. All we can do is examine our past choices, look where we may have gone off the rails, take ownership of it, and apply the lessons learned to the present.
I also strongly encourage you to connect with our resident moms for support here.
Keep us posted.