jillson,
I'm just assuming you also have some kind of drug issue. Forgive me if I'm wrong, but must folks around here do.
Dual Recovery Anonymous meetings may interest you. The Twelve Steps are a great way to gain self-acceptance.
Also, I skimmed pedagogue's post and noticed he didn't mention anything about light. I'm a firm believer in the value of full-spectrum light in treating mood disorders! I myself tan in a tanning bed, but that can cause skin cancer so I don't really suggest it for everyone. Just getting outside more can make a big difference, but also full-spectrum indoor lighting appears to be helpful. Here's another website of interest:
Verilux lighting.
Best wishes in your recovery!
Love and hugs,
Eddie
