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startingnewlife · 05-26-2005, 03:38 PM

It's me "again", I just did a search on local NA meetings and found that I have on somewhat near me on Monday, part of me is so excited and part of me is scared to death to walk in there alone....not really sure what to expect. I'm assuming I will find a room full of supportive people that are there for the same thing, to help themselves and others.....I have never made these steps before, I talked the talk, but never walked the walk....I am SOOOO happy and scared that I am moving forward in this, in the right direction for once! I just wish I had more support from my family ya know....my mom has been good, but my dad has no clue, my sister, she's in the same boat and she's the one who offered me more pills and I turned her down (thank God) I know I have "talked" about it before but was never this serious or have never gotten this far, maybe, just maybe things will work out for me and it'll be an inspiration to her. Right now I have to keep my distance from her b/c I think the temptation would be too great right now. My husband and I split up about 5 wks ago and my daughters and I live on our own now, that in itself is extremely stressful but he has been supportive....last night I stayed w/him when my girls went to my mothers so I didn't have to be alone. I really wonder how much this addiction has played a part in our marriage?!?!?!? When I was popping pills I "thought" I felt better, but I think I'm on the right road now to see how great life can really be if I just stick it out! Thanks again for listening....I am going to make plans for my mom to watch my girls on Monday night and go to my first NA meeting, I will keep you posted on how it goes. Reading other posts on here, it sounds like it's a great support group so I'm looking forward to it. I thank you all so much for helping me thru these difficult times, you have no idea how much it means to me and how much it is helping to know there IS support out there! Oh, by the way, I DON'T have any pills in my possession, I've tried that before, I've tried tappering down, and just could NOT do it....that's why I figured cold turkey is the only way for me at this point in my life! Thanks for being there!

05-26-2005, 03:38 PM	#6 (permalink)
startingnewlife Feeling Free!!!! Join Date: May 2005 Location: Upstate New York Posts: 7	I found info on a local NA meeting.....what to expect?? It's me "again", I just did a search on local NA meetings and found that I have on somewhat near me on Monday, part of me is so excited and part of me is scared to death to walk in there alone....not really sure what to expect. I'm assuming I will find a room full of supportive people that are there for the same thing, to help themselves and others.....I have never made these steps before, I talked the talk, but never walked the walk....I am SOOOO happy and scared that I am moving forward in this, in the right direction for once! I just wish I had more support from my family ya know....my mom has been good, but my dad has no clue, my sister, she's in the same boat and she's the one who offered me more pills and I turned her down (thank God) I know I have "talked" about it before but was never this serious or have never gotten this far, maybe, just maybe things will work out for me and it'll be an inspiration to her. Right now I have to keep my distance from her b/c I think the temptation would be too great right now. My husband and I split up about 5 wks ago and my daughters and I live on our own now, that in itself is extremely stressful but he has been supportive....last night I stayed w/him when my girls went to my mothers so I didn't have to be alone. I really wonder how much this addiction has played a part in our marriage?!?!?!? When I was popping pills I "thought" I felt better, but I think I'm on the right road now to see how great life can really be if I just stick it out! Thanks again for listening....I am going to make plans for my mom to watch my girls on Monday night and go to my first NA meeting, I will keep you posted on how it goes. Reading other posts on here, it sounds like it's a great support group so I'm looking forward to it. I thank you all so much for helping me thru these difficult times, you have no idea how much it means to me and how much it is helping to know there IS support out there! Oh, by the way, I DON'T have any pills in my possession, I've tried that before, I've tried tappering down, and just could NOT do it....that's why I figured cold turkey is the only way for me at this point in my life! Thanks for being there!