((((Mill))))
Once upon a time I had a lot of reservations and a few resentments against the big book. The patriarchical, sexist, out dated language, the story title "Women Suffer, Too" (no sh#t!), etc.
Surrender into a place of complete willingness was, I think, what got me past my own judgements. Today I am grateful for the BB because it is a step-by-step text book that shows me how to live - not just w/o alcohol and drugs, but live real life in all of it's various colors and shades. I didn't know how to do all (any?) of this and the book and people in recovery showed me how. I am grateful that I didn't have to learn for myself or make many of the mistakes that others before me have made. If I'd had to re-invent this particular wheel, I know for sure that I wouldn't just be still out there, I'd be dead.
Having others that are a few steps or a few miles ahead of me on the recovery path turn around and offer their helping hands, encouragement, wisdom, love and support is what saved my life and is what is still saving my a$$ today.
hugs,
phinny