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Hi soba,
You said you've been around AA for a while so maybe you remember Fr. Joe Martin. He made a tape long ago titled, "Symtoms of Sobriety." In this tape he suggested that after a number of years in AA, if a person still finds it necessary to go to meetings almost every night of the week, they've missed the point of being sober. I'm like you! I go to one meeting a week, more if I "choose." I needed to go to 6 or 8 meetings a week in the beginning, but I found that at about 8 to 10 years sober, I realized there was more to living life responsibly, and productively than going to AA every night. I needed to do things with my family and friends outside of AA. The meetings are always going to be there but I'd advise against thinking you're in a funk. Fear can make us think strange things and behave in strange ways. Get off your own back and give one meeting a week a try. You can always do more if you want to. The Big Book tells me that I don't have to be afraid any more as long as I'm on good spiritual footing. I can go anywhere and do anything I choose to do. Even good ol' whoopy parties, if I have good reason to be there. Relax and give freedom a try.
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