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Originally Posted by Lilalkie I had a bad day. I went to work and my boss was being unpleasant, then I came home and found out that the people who were going to buy our house couldn't get the loan to work out, and then I was supposed to go out of town to visit my sister, and then I found out her husband's grandfather died and they would have to cancel the trip. I got angry and ranted and raved and pouted (at God. He seemed like the only one to get mad at at the time). I said, "I'm doing the right thing. Getting my life together and this is how you repay me? Well, I just don't care anymore. I'm going to get good and drunk." I was sorely tempted. But then I called my sister back and we had a good talk and I felt better.
But I was so very close to giving in. At that particular moment, I really didn't care about sobriety anymore. I was so angry and depressed that I wanted to get rid of the pain immediately. It's hard to feel real emotions sometimes. I overreacted, and though I'm still a little shaky, I know I will wake up tomorrow morning, glad I didn't drink tonight. |
Lil-We all have our share of BAD days....it comes in waves...good times and then ten bad things....I used to rant and rave at God....WHY??? Now, I just say "THIS IS A TEST". I really believe that we get more sh*t than most people because we are able to use tools to deal with it...just think if you did NOT know how???? Not good.....that is why there are still people "out" there......Kahlia.....you did amazing......YEAH
