stayingsober
just giving up drinking is only helping you physically...and that's not to denegrate it - it's awesome what you have done...but you know what it must be taking HERCULEAN strength!!!! It's TOO HARD TO DO IT ON ONE's OWN!!! You don't get a special prize for doing it on your own - and it's 100% HARDER.
My suggestion: look up a meeting
www.aa.org - find one in your area...never mind your preconceptions...this is where you will find fellowship, support, craic (as in fun, not CRACK the drug lol!) new friendships and MOST importantly spiritual HEALING and GROWTH. Alcoholism is such a terrible mental disesae...the drinking is only a SYMPTOM which you are dealing with very well I might add. VERY well - well done on that. But I can understand how nothing seems to be 'changing' - pm me any time if you wish and GOOD LUCK! I think aa meetings will make the world of difference - in fact i know they will, because before I engaged in them and went through 'dry' periods, i felt just like you do.
love
cathy31
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