[wantneeda]

Well i gotta say WOW, i'm pretty new to the program, and i am an alcoholic AND an addict, in my area i hear the introductions often stated as such, i do say i am a drug addicted alcoholic called Wendy. I have never had any flack over it. To think of someone showing me the door jsut has me shaking my head. As NA isn't as strong here or has the long time sobriety i want i choose to go to AA. For myself cocaine took me to my bottom and i've relapsed shortly after a 28 day program...but it started with a joint, progressed to alcohol which lead me to my DOC hence 6 months later and very near death i hit what was hopefully my last bottom. My first drunk was at 3 years old, dandelion wine consumed in the closet with the little boy neighbor. Fast forward a few years, around 8 years old and up, dinners at gram and gramps on special occasions my sis and i would be "treated" to a shot of baby duck.
My obsession started with alcohol i jsut found what i wanted in coke, if ever there was no doc then alcohol became the second choice. Both substances have ruined alot of things in my life.
I have the disease of alcoholism, i have the disease of addiction, they are the same to me. I sure hope no one dies from being shown out of a meeting. i even at times read out of the NA basic text because the language used in the BB has me searching through the dictionary. the only difference in the 12 steps for these 2 programs is in step 1, by 1 word.
I take what i need and leave the rest. the only thing i know about the meaning of a "real" alcoholic is that i am POSITIVE i fit the bill, i can't drink, i can't stop at one.
I am also a "real" drug addict, i can't stop at one. Being that my DOC BECAME cocaine and AA has saved my life as i know it today, i'm going to keep going.