[Tricky]

THANKYOU for the replys to . . . wHAT IF I DONT FIT IN. .

i am an addict, "alcohol is a drug and we "CANNOT" be confused about this. .

when i share i dont say im an alcoholic- addict, simply because of this. . . the new commer[ and rememeber we were all one once] could sit next to you and think that they are two differant things, how many addicts relapse on alcohol?
how many alcoholics relapse on puff or some other drug ?
when will people in the rooms see it as the same?
ive ben to lots of differant meetings and the result is always the same. . some people think i shouldnt be there, no matter how much i try to open up to them or let them in they push me away, this is life and death stuff for me, my life my death.
so far ive had my anonimity broken at N.A, ive been laughed at for relapseing,
and when i went back out there NOT ONE person bothered to ring me, including my so-called sponcer and my so-called fellowship friends, i know im angry but this doesnt stop me wanting to be clean [of all mind altering substances]. i go, i try, im pushed away, WE ARE THE SAME our experiences might be differant but our cravings and addiction are the same.

so if im at your meeting and i say im an ADDICT im really saying i need HELP!! PLEASE dont look down on me or even push me away really im just like you except that my drug of choice was differant. . . peace to each and evey one of you. . . x