Ped;
I went to the union delegate. He called the principal and asked what was happening. That was the end. I probably should start a grievance, go over his head. The truth is our union is weak. But, you're right; it was indeed a workplace safty issue.
MG;
Your post resonated with me. The kind of anxiety that doesn't go away, even when you know you're safe; the fight or flight mode that is "stuck" to so speak. That's what this is. It's what I'm feeling.
I am in total amazement that the police act in such a manner at a group home for mentally retarded adults! Sounds like it is only a matter of time before something tragic happens! I'm sorry you had to leave your job. But, I can fully understand your decision too!
Yes, there is only so much stress that a person can take. And mine went into overload, I think. Ped, thanks for the observation about the symptoms related to the stressors. I think you're right there, too.
My doctor called me this afternoon. I had given him a report after speaking to my counselor and old career counselor. The jist of it is the above information that I gave you and, that I've decided that I cannot stay at my job. I've developed a plan to apply for a new school opening in Providence next year; it's a private Jewish Day School. The pay will be less; I have to determine if I can live on the pay. But, I know I cannot stay working for this administration. I spoke to a friend whose on the board of this up and coming school; he told me where to apply. SO, I'll do that this week.
I've also, with the help of my old career counselor, developed a five point plan to give to the school improvement team. It's a system analysis of the breakdown of the security at the school.
My doc asked me if I felt safe going back now that the girl was gone. He was willing to sign me out for longer. But, I do feel better knowing these two kids are gone. Still a bit shakey, because I know now that I can't trust the admin to do the right thing. Anything could have happened. But, I can't run from school; from my students. He said if anything changes, or if I don't feel good, that I should call him again. He's the BEST!!!
So, thanks for your responses. I feel better getting some feedback too, from you folks. That, and the plan developed which gives me something to focus on in a positive manner. Still having trouble sleeping through the night, as evidenced by the time I posted this, (lol), but, I suppose that will even itself out in time too. If not, I'll call my doc again, and see what he says.
Thanks for listening! SR is just one great place to be!!!
Shalom!