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Delta83 · 04-03-2005, 01:11 PM

Hello, My name is Delta and I have been reading the board here for some time now but have never posted before, but I would really like to talk to other christians that have been where I am. I have been to alot of recovery forums that really wasn't christian based and I have to say, It's just not the same. I really want to be a part of a group that shares the same love for Christ that I do. I would also like to share a bit of my story with you and get a little feed back on it.

My story goes something like this: I have been drug addict for 29 years, 12 years ago I went into rehad and got off illegal drugs, it was at that time I though I had beat my addictions. Truth is I only exchanged them, after rehab I became addicted to prescription drugs but I didn't think I had a problem because after all, the dr. gave me these drugs, so I must be ok. Even after I started using even more than what was perscribed for me in my mind I still really belived that I was in recovery, that I was fine.

5 years ago I accepted Christ as my personal saviour, He begin to work in my life in ways you would never imagine. I still can't believe some of the things He has done for me. My life has been so blessed, but there is one problem, even after 5 years I was still and addict, and I didn't see it, not untill about 6 weeks ago when things in my live went really bad and God finally got my attention. I couldn't believe what I had done, that I had been so blind, or that God had allowed me to go for so long in my sin.

I begin to wonder if God had truely saved me in the first place..I wondered how God could save a drug addict and let them continue to be a drug addict, but I couldn't look over the fact that he had done so many wonderful things in my life. Things that I knew only He could have done. Things I knew only He could have brought me out of, so how could all of this have been?

I went to a very dear christian friend and talked with her. She knew all that I was going through, and all I had been through in the past. I asked her how is it possiable that GOd can save someone and let them stay in there sins for 5 years. She told me that when God saves someone that there live is not always changed overnight, somethings take time, and the point is not when God reaches you, but that He does reach you. Well Thank God He did reach me, and none to soon, if I had not listened I know with all my heart I would soon be dead, but I know that as long as I stay close to Him I have nothing to fear. He has showed me so many times He will take care of me if I will only trust Him, so as of now.....I will trust Him! Where ever He leads me I will go, what ever He ask of me, I will do.

04-03-2005, 01:11 PM	#1 (permalink)
Delta83 Member Join Date: Jul 2004 Location: Flora IN Posts: 4	I will trust Him Hello, My name is Delta and I have been reading the board here for some time now but have never posted before, but I would really like to talk to other christians that have been where I am. I have been to alot of recovery forums that really wasn't christian based and I have to say, It's just not the same. I really want to be a part of a group that shares the same love for Christ that I do. I would also like to share a bit of my story with you and get a little feed back on it. My story goes something like this: I have been drug addict for 29 years, 12 years ago I went into rehad and got off illegal drugs, it was at that time I though I had beat my addictions. Truth is I only exchanged them, after rehab I became addicted to prescription drugs but I didn't think I had a problem because after all, the dr. gave me these drugs, so I must be ok. Even after I started using even more than what was perscribed for me in my mind I still really belived that I was in recovery, that I was fine. 5 years ago I accepted Christ as my personal saviour, He begin to work in my life in ways you would never imagine. I still can't believe some of the things He has done for me. My life has been so blessed, but there is one problem, even after 5 years I was still and addict, and I didn't see it, not untill about 6 weeks ago when things in my live went really bad and God finally got my attention. I couldn't believe what I had done, that I had been so blind, or that God had allowed me to go for so long in my sin. I begin to wonder if God had truely saved me in the first place..I wondered how God could save a drug addict and let them continue to be a drug addict, but I couldn't look over the fact that he had done so many wonderful things in my life. Things that I knew only He could have done. Things I knew only He could have brought me out of, so how could all of this have been? I went to a very dear christian friend and talked with her. She knew all that I was going through, and all I had been through in the past. I asked her how is it possiable that GOd can save someone and let them stay in there sins for 5 years. She told me that when God saves someone that there live is not always changed overnight, somethings take time, and the point is not when God reaches you, but that He does reach you. Well Thank God He did reach me, and none to soon, if I had not listened I know with all my heart I would soon be dead, but I know that as long as I stay close to Him I have nothing to fear. He has showed me so many times He will take care of me if I will only trust Him, so as of now.....I will trust Him! Where ever He leads me I will go, what ever He ask of me, I will do.