Thanks everyone....oh I knew this was the place to come and vent, didn't have anyone else to talk to....well I did, he's 8lbs and a little fur ball, who got majorly hugged last night, and he understands fully, I know he doesn't like me drinking, I've seen it in his eyes, odd isn't that? I made a promise to him the night I got burnt, the poor little mite was pretty upset with the turn of events that night, and I promised never to scare him again, which I ended up breaking....yeah I know he's just a dog...but hey they seem to know what some of us humans need more then we do. I will work harder on my promise to him.....as far as that man goes that I'm married to, I made a promise to myself last night, not to let him get to me anymore, I can't drink bottom line...I told him when I was going back to meetings, he can drink all he wants, I don't care, so what the heck is the problem...what is he so afraid of (control) blah to that. Is he embarrassed his wife is going to meetings with a bunch of drunks?...well imagine that, just imagine.
Yep Dan it is my life, so high time I took control of it.
Chris that saying aplys here also.....mama hasn't been happy a longggggggg time, she's gonna work hard on changing that...glad it's spring and getting warmer, the park bench won't be so hard to sleep on, lol.
Carol you have me laughing @ red teddie......in his dreams I say..and the King part, nope high time he stepped down from his thrown and let the Queen sit up there...hey gang waving at you, this isn't so bad.
Mac good to see you again, haven't seen you around in some time.
Don....Chy....funny I don't feel so brave..last night at the meeting I swear I was stiff as a board, yowza, took me some time to calm down last night. Anyway today is a new day, it's sunny out, all is good.
One more thing about last nights meeting, I really like listening to what the gang had to say....one man put tears in my eyes, the reality of this, people he's known who have died, put a gun to their mouths (that brought up a bad memory for me) some hung themselves..a good friend of his went out one winter night, froze to death in his drunken state. He looked me straight in the eye and he said he understood how hard this would be, especially being a female trying to keep the family happy.
Anyway nothing pretty about this sickness is there, so tired of it, so tired of fighting it for so longgggggg.....so back to a meeting tonight, I love the sound of the fellowship, it's a good word.
