First off.....there is no "normal" person. We are all 'unique snowflakes'.
I would call your doctor and talk to him/her about your medication concerns. The length of time you have been taking them consistantly (5-6 weeks) is about when they should normalize in your system. There are other options if Lamictal isn't working for you, but you'd need to consult your prescribing doctor about them.
To shift gears now....it is time for you to accept that medication is acceptable. Don't get caught up in the, "why do I have to take this? why can't I just 'gut it out'? what is wrong with me?". You have it because you need it. There is nothing to be embarassed/ashamed of. Millions (if not billions) of people are on medication for various problems. You are just one of them.
-pedagogue