| Feeling Frustrated
Hi
I'm feeling very frustrated right now. Had some sort of stress-related emotional breakdown a couple of months ago. Am now on Lamictal and Seraquel (occasionally on that one when i have trouble getting to sleep.)
I originally did not want to be on anything, but basically gave up arguing with my wife about it. Any little thing went wrong, and she'd drag out the "you should be taking those drugs" line. So i gave up and have been doing so for the last 5-6 weeks or so.
I can't say that i really feel any better. The only effects seem to be negative. Had lots of headaches when the lamictal dosage got increased. The seraquel does help me get to sleep when i take it, but the next morning i end up feeling physically rested but mentally scrambled--basically like a ditzy blond all day. (please dont take offense at that- none intended--i just dont know how to describe it better) I'm not sure what "normal" is supposed to feel like, but i don't think this is it. And each day i pop those pills, apart of me feels defeated or i-dont-know, less of myself i guess. Question: what would happen to a "normal" person if they started taking these kinda drugs? Im not denying a problem of some sort here i just question whether these are right for me.
And too top it off, things are still not good between me and my wife-- in fact they have been worse. So i guess im really questioning taking these darn things right now. I kinda feel like im damned if i do and damned if i dont.
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