I just wanted to add... I too never did drugs, never even tried pot. My husband is lucky if he can get a glass of champagne down me on our anniversary. I am (or I was) about the straightest geek you could ever hope to meet. I started taking Ultram after treatment for breast cancer 5 years ago, thinking it was the lesser of the evils as pain meds go. Ironically, I didn't like the way Vicodin made me feel, and I wanted and needed to get back to work. The M.D. as well as the pharmacist at the time told me, like you, that it was not addictive. And like you I found out differently. I went from geek to criminal as a result of this addiction. My problem 6 months out has never been wanting to use again (the thought makes me ill); it has been dealing with the guilt over what this has done to my family. God has taken pity on me by taking any craving away now that I am clean; now I need to work on the guilt part. One hour at a time... hang in there!